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teokahmeng
11 January 2009 @ 02:48 pm
Give up!!!  
Give up is all i can think of... 1 yr 5 mths le, like u, but it seems so painful.. I realised all these while i been at 1-sided love.. I don blame u, cos i always the 1 who approach u... I realli clueless wat i going to do nxt, the onli i can think of is giving up.. maybe tt will make us feel much better, even as friends...
 
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teokahmeng
04 January 2009 @ 07:19 pm
Sick n tire  
1 yr 5 mths to go... Honestly speaking, i kind of sick n tire of this kind of life... i wanna lead a normal life like b4, don need to be so regiment.. I realli wanna live a normal life, i wan to end this ns life asap... 1 yr 5 mths to ord... i will be waiting.. Zzzzzzzzz
 
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teokahmeng
04 January 2009 @ 05:13 pm
AHHHHhhhhhh  
AHHHhhh!!! Am i in 1 sided love?? I think i start to suspect tt i indeed in 1-sided love... So used to it, i numb, but rather devastated.. Let the nature takes its course ba.. All i care is my training n my leisure, nothing else le!!!
 
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teokahmeng
04 January 2009 @ 11:57 am
haizz  
R gals realli hard to understand? I pop out this qns bcos sometimes i realise i don noe wat they realli want.. They could give a guy sometimes hot n sometimes cold feeling.. Y cant they be straight-forward enuff?.. Recently, nothing much to talk to her.. perhaps she realli tired n busy, while i oso.. Plus, i terribly sick recently... Down wif a heavy flu... ! more month to go n 1 yr 5 mths to ORD... GOD, bless mi for tt.. As for her, i did wat i could liao, as i said, still able to maintain friendship, i realli far too contented le=) Gotta take a nap liao, to rest more to speed up my recovery of my flu... Byeeee!!
 
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teokahmeng
01 January 2009 @ 01:04 pm
=(  
2008 had just past, there comes the year of 2009.. Hope this yr will be a great yr for mi.. Every yr there bounds to have mixture of ups n downs in ur life.. No1 in this world will surely have a smooth life, when 1 ought to go thru hardship den able to mould into a maturity and sensible character.. This new yr i realli hope she had a great future ahead for herself, my family( all having a healthy body), n my friends as well(better days ahead n stay happy)=)
 
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teokahmeng
23 November 2008 @ 08:24 pm
=)  
Life in unit wasnt quite smooth to me.. just a suay day for mi last fri when abt to bk out.. God, pray hard n bless mi not to sign extra for nothing cos i nt trying to be negligence or careless, i just merely listening orders from the appointment holder.. come on kah meng, do cheer up.. NS life isnt end of the world for u man.. hai.. just when i feeling bothered wif NS issue plus some personal stuffs, there comes her again.. Talking to mi online.. this isnt the 1st time le, but nvm, this is nt the impt issue.. regardless whether we have topics to talk or nt, she always brighten my days when she talks to mi online, is even more bright if i could get to see her cheerful smile.. Her smile on her sweet looking face has always make me rmb n mesmerizing.. aniway though she could be my source of motivation, but i dare nt pin too much hope on it.. Just concentrate on training n hopefully get into Armour Engineer, where i could get my license to drive a tank..=) gotta bk in le, will continue the blog some other time.. hehe
 
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teokahmeng
02 November 2008 @ 01:52 pm
Low of Confidence...  
I tried, i realli tried... but y i could nt pass my ippt... am i tt unfit?? got gold for chin up(10), 2.4km run(9min 32sec), sit-up(41), shuttle run(9,4sec), but y must my SBJ a let down.. 4 cm to pass sia.. even a pass oso nt pls.. i aiming for either silver or gold.. i realli nt pleased... my morale realli hit to the bottom... 2 more wks to go, i needa in order to pass the course... i cant afford to re-course... but when i feeling sad, my SOC became a satisfaction... for my enitre 5 mths of army, is 1st time i pass my SOC in SBO n full-rundown.. i realli pls wif my performance.. maybe i shld nt think too much, but rather go n give in my 100% best.. But afterwards, i was rather suay, i kanna extra guard cos tt time i misfire during outfield.. hope this is my last punishment of all le.. i don wish to burn my wkend.. i hardly spend time wif my parents n go out to enjoy this wk.. realli a bad wk for mi this wk.. hope this coming 7th wk is my best wk, pass my ippt wif at least silver grade n pass my soc test on thurs in order to bk out on fri for the 1st time in time in BSLC.. gotta bk in soon,, tata..
 
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teokahmeng
19 October 2008 @ 04:46 pm
ARGHHHhhhh  
It seems like i will be updating my livejournal every sunday... Ya, i booking in soon.. kind of emo... this wk still gt another outfield n navigation test.. i will nvr like outfield in my entire life.. gotta live in dirty environment, bitten by insects, n mani bad experience.. plus 5 times big shag on mi... is damn tiring the outfield.. hai... Emo-ing... Wondering when can see her sia, kind of miss her.. each time i bk out, all i realli wanna see if she's onlining or not.. get to talk to her or things like tt.. yday night manage to find topics to talk to her thru sms, while she's preparing her stuffs n on her way to attend her wedding dinner... i guess it must be her relatives wedding or whoever.. don wanna think so much cos i just onli making hallucinating over this issue... let nature takes is course... but i glad she treat mi as frenz, nvr reject mi from outing, chat wif mi online or sms.. n oso realli glad she accepted the bday present which i kept it for so long.. nt i don wanna gave her long time ago, just fear she might wanna reject it.. i scare failure, a guy wif no guts... i don wan pin so much hope for myself thru all those stuffs she gave it on mi.. i had seen lots of it in the past, i don wanna ani failure or suffering dejected feeling from a girl le... NO!!! no more liao.. getting tire n tire these days... 4 more wks to complete BSLC... gotta jiayou.. preferrably will try ask her out during end nov or dec... gotta prepare my stuffs, will update nxt wk..=(
 
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teokahmeng
12 October 2008 @ 02:38 pm
OMG...  

Bravo fucktup... y i said tt.. less admin time, no nights out, less slp time for us.. where gt welfare... haizz.. life sux, but i have to go on.. a real man grows up when they go thru all these shit... hope time passes fast... 5 more wks to finish BSLC... is realli fucktup vocation, physically n mental and torture... this wk n following got 3 outfields... omg... outfield i hated the most.. aniway, yday went to shi min's bday.. happy 21st bday to u.. hee.. unable to wish her as i going for outfield on her actual day... get to see frenz whom nvr met for long.. aniway, i quite tire, nothing much to talk.. will be back.. hee.. 

 
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teokahmeng
05 October 2008 @ 05:47 pm
Emo-ing...  

Oh well, not while have to bk in again.. Tts sian... When can i end this life n continue a normal life as b4.. The importance of defending the nation i know, but shld we waste tt 2 precious yrs to undergo this training??...  2 yrs could allow mi to further my studies, earn more money... Tts the priority, i insist it in my own opinion!! Anyway, my left arm injured, i don wish to OOC... Cos i have come this far... Nothing great abt Sispec, but is something i shld be proud if i can come to this command school.. God, pls bless mi to go thru this 6 more wks, hope my arm can recover asap...

Human feelings n emotions r veri funny, i may feel down when knowing tt time is so short for mi to stay at hm n bking in soon... There comes her, chatting wif mi online.. Same old thing, nothing much to talk.. cos nw i know her well, tts her character.. a quiet, but sweet gal... i simply like the way her smile is.. Anyway i have no time for dating or outing things like tt, at most free to sms her during my admin time.. Gotta join my parents for dinner b4 bking in... cya all nxt sat..

 
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